CATTSKI OFFICIAL LYRICS

EX!

2010-04-21T02:28:00.000-07:00

(released as a video demo - Cattski Live Demos 09-10)

I know that you are happy
I can see it in your smile
And I know that you don’t need me
And I’m not wondering why

You’ve found the one you’ve always wanted
That you’ve waited long to have
And you found this love the moment
That you let go of my hand

And even if we gave ourselves away
I… still want you to say

Hey, I still care about you
I think about you every now and then
I don’t want to pretend that I don’t
Let’s just forget the bad that we once had
It’s all good, we’ve learned from it as we should
It’s all good

I know that you believe me
When I tell you I’m alright
I’m finally past the stage of some confusion in my life

I know that I have always wanted
What I thought I couldn’t have
Now I realize that I’ve always had it
It never left my side

NEW

2010-04-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

(released as a video demo - Cattski Live Demos 09-10)

Change
So unavoidable, so irresistible
When it is all set for good

Strange
How things can fall apart
We break each other’s hearts
And for that we lost some good

I stood witness to the bridges you burned
But to me nothing is lost
And it’s all because

This is not you
I guess i like the old you
But then you like the new
This is not you
And what they say is true
There’s nothing we can do
When someone changes you

Change
You are predictable
And so irrational
I just hope it’s not for good

Strange
Now that we’re torn apart
It feels like it’s the start
Of something that’s so good

I stood witness to the bridges you burned
But to me nothing is lost
And it’s all because

This is not you
I guess i like the old you
But then you like the new
This is not you
And what they say is true
There’s nothing we can do
When someone changes you

You can lose yourself
And go berserk
All that you want
If that’s what you want
You can take your time
And never change your mind
If that’s what you want
If that’s what you want

This is not you
I guess i like the old you
But then you like the new
This is not you
And what they say is true
There’s nothing we can do
When someone changes you

This is not the you i know

MY TURN

2010-04-21T01:47:00.000-07:00

(released as a video demo - Cattski Live Demos 09-10)

It doesn’t really matter
Who found who
If you found me
Or if I found you
Now questions are answered
Holes are filled
The truth is revealed

And it doesn’t really matter
What we’ve both been through
Cause I’m a better me
And you’re a better you
And you’re quick to forgive me
As I apologize, I saw it in your eyes

There’s a reason why
Now you are here
After all of those years
It’s for me to know
That I walked away
Ignoring your tears

Now It’s my turn to love you
It’s written in the stars
I’ll make up for the day I broke your heart
Now that I’ve found you
Love’s what I owe you
I’ll make up for the day I broke you heart

And all that really matters
Now that I’m here, now we can heal
From the pain we had to go through
For just one mistake
And everything we had to take

I’m not gonna take you away from the world that you know
I’m not gonna take you away from the life that you know

MISTRESS

2010-04-21T01:45:00.000-07:00

(released as a video demo - Cattski Live Demos)

Please spare some time to cuddle me
Let’s make love under my sheets
I’ll let you in my lonely room
And i’ll show you what i mean

Please spare some time to hold me
Pillow talk our way to sleep
Give me some of your kisses
Please do that before you leave

Cause i’ll miss you
When you go back to your life
In that universe where im not part of
Your every single day

One last time
Help me make believe that tou are mine
Before i slip away from your restless mind
One last time
Teach me how to love you right
So you just might stay
For one more day, or one more night

Please spare some time to love me
You can tell me all your dreams
Close your eyes and hold me tight
And everything will be alright

Cause i’ll miss you when you leave me
When you close the door behind you
You leave me aching for you
When you go back to your life
In that universe where im not part
Of your every single day

BOHOLOVE

2010-04-21T01:39:00.000-07:00

(released as a video demo - Cattski Live Demos 2009-2010)

Everyday is an irony
Something you can’t see through me
To you these thoughts are just unnecessary complexity

You don’t understand this self-imposed poverty
And why I devote myself to my art wholly

You don’t understand why I’m confused and complicated
And even I don’t really get myself

Oh I’m not someone most people can consider normal
And I am aware that I can be so temperamental

Run, run as fast as you can
Don’t look back keep going
Before the thought of me
Catches up on you
Just run, run as fast as you can
Don’t look back, no stopping
Even if the thought of me is
Catching up on you again

You don’t blend in with my sometimes overly eccentric friends
You find them weird and you despise them

You don’t get my open mind
Slice me up and you will find
Self-expression is my number one thing

I don’t follow rules and I am so opinionated
And I don’t care as much what people think and say

Stay away from me
You’re better off without me baby
Stay away from me
You don’t know how bad it can be…

QUICKFIX

2010-04-21T01:24:00.000-07:00

(released as a Live Video Demo - Cattski Live Demos 2009)

Now it’s time to do you this huge favor
Now it’s time to let you go
Cause I’m not sure if I can give you everything that you deserve
I don’t know, I’m not sure about myself

And I’m not even gonna say I’m sorry
Cause that won’t ever be enough
I just have this deeper understanding
That we’re never really that in love

‘cause now I see that you are moving on quick
And I don’t blame you if that’s how you get yourself a fix

Look at us baby
We’re not crying
Here’s our chance to be set free
Look at us baby
We’re not hurting
Now we set each other free

And now it’s time that we both make this promise
That one day we will be friends
But I guess for now it’s best that we give each other space
Give some time for this to mend

‘cause now I see that you are moving on quick
And I don’t blame you if that’s how you get yourself a fix

Now we stop hurting each other
If we stuck together, we’d still won’t last forever
Now we stop holding on
Time for you to move on
While I go back to where
I belong

Look at us baby

Look at us baby
We’re not pretending that we can make each other happy
Look at us baby, we’re not holding on
Time for you to move on
While I go back to where
I belong

One day we will be friends…

ONE

2010-04-19T03:59:00.000-07:00

(released as a Live Video Demo - Cattski Live Demos 2009)

I’m not under the weather

I’m just uncomfortable not being sad for once
I’m not nurturing bad feelings
When i thought i was down
I was actually just healing

I’m not scared of tomorrow
Or of being single and of growing old alone
I am living in the moment
I am just appreciating life as it unfolds

*better keep an open mind
Cause one day you’ll find that
Worry’s just a waste of time
Worry’s just a waste

**i’ve only got one life
And i will live it right
And so i chase away the fears
That has hindered me for years
I’ve only got one mind
And there’s nowhere i can find
A mind so beautiful and strange
It tells me how liberating it is to be brave

I’m done underachieving
Sky will be the limit to everything i do
I’ll keep searching for life’s meaning
If it’s the only way i bring myself to highest good

Brave brave brave…

GENIUS

2010-04-19T03:47:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009 & TEN 2010)

Can I touch you
You know I will if you’ll let me
Can I break old habits
That hinder you to change

Can I warn you
I am passionate
And you just might fall in love with me
Can I take you home
Can I take your fears away
And make you understand
Why you don’t understand your life

There’s something he can’t give you
The Push-you-away-and-beg-you-stay
At the same time 2x
There’s something he can’t give you
What you can learn from me
I’m a genius
In both happiness and misery
Yeah

Can I hurt you?
So you’ll feel my pain
Something you should try
Every now and then
Can I make you cry?
Can I make wonder why?I seem to take your breath away

Ahhh
You make me wonder why
You say you’re not out to catch the next guy
Aahh
There’s something we both know
What you spend with him for a decade
You spend with me for one day

SAME RISK

2010-04-19T03:43:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009)

Funny how i can't resist
the smile that forms around your lips
when i have promised myself
never ever pay attention

'cause i have been hurt bad before
i shouldn't fall in love no more
but it seems to me that i am
going your direction

Oh youre this force that draws me in
and i can't help myself but let you in...

so i will take this risk
of loving you and having you
cause my heart insists
and i will take the same risk
of getting hurt, cause love could hurt
still my heart insists, oh my heart insists

Lately all i do is think
that i should follow my instincts
and they are telling that i should be very careful
but i have been in love before
and i know it so much more
and it's okay because i see that you are wonderful

Love hurts dont forget to mention
love hurts but baby pay attention

BEING GOOD

2010-04-19T03:40:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES & KISMET THE SINGLES 2009)

I feel good all over
Even in your absence
I don’t regret the moment I let you go
‘Cause I know that I love you
Everything’s so clear
That’s why I’m not worried
Cause I’m sure of how I feel

I only feel sad whenever
It hits me that I miss you
Sometimes I still find myself
Wishing you were here
But I know this is better
That for now I am without you
Here’s my chance to finally figure out my life

And I need this time away from you
And I know it’s time the truth will show
That this is my life
And it goes on with or without you
You’re just the bonus that I get for being good

One day when I see you
I’ll be free from all my issues
I just need to learn
To make amends with myself
I don’t need a witness
To this rollercoaster journey
This is something
I’ve always needed to do all by myself

And I need this time away from you
And I know it’s time the truth will show
That this is my life
And it goes on with or without you
You’re just the bonus that I get for being good

I really believe that you deserve better 3x
I really believe that I can be better

TSAEH

2010-04-19T03:38:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009 & TEN 2010)

(Tae, tae kang dako)

Wa ako nahimuot
Sa imong mga binotbot
Gilamigas ang imong baba
Sa imong mga bakak

Apan wa ako’y mahimo
Kung ang imong dila
Ani-a sa akong gutom na baba

Cho:
Usa ka kabakakon 4x

(Tae, tae kang dako)
Oh wa ako makatawa
Sa imong mga istorya
Nagsige ka na lang ug panghambog
Kada adlaw mura’g hubog

Apan wa ako’y mahimo
Kung ang imong halok gilok
Ani-a sa akong gisingot na li-og

Repeat Cho:

(Tae, Tae kang dako)

Apan wa ako’y mahimo
Kung ang imong dila
Ani-a sa akong gigutom na baba

Repeat Cho

Bakakon ka
Himo-himo ka’g sturya
Bakakon ka
Apan kanimo ako ang nahigugma…

(Tae, tae kang dako)

TEMPORARY

2010-04-19T03:35:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009)

Everything is temporary
I know you don’t have to tell me
Everything will come to an end
But I believe that its not over
The best is yet to come
And maybe it could be that our lives have just begun

I know that it’s a bit confusing you
How I would hurt you that way
You know my life was such a total disarray
But I believe that I’m all over that
And I should start again
But I just wish that you would feel the same

Because we are more
We’re beyond all relationships explored
Here’s my happy tune that I want you to sing with me so badly
And that will make me happy
And here’s my last embrace that I want you to hold on to when you leave me
And that will make me happy

Oh. What we have will last forever inside me.

In the end I believe that it will be okay
And if its not okay, then maybe its not the end
And everything can only fall into place
And it wont be long til I can fill this empty space
I know that letting go is very necessary
But I find comfort in knowing that its only temporary

I know we are more
We’re beyond all relationships explored

50

2010-04-19T03:15:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009)

You’re in your 20s
You’re already undergoing midlife crisis
Under pressure from the world
I envy you

And in your 20s
You’ve made up your mind
That you’ll let it rule over your heart
At all times
I envy you

I’m on my way to my 30s
But I truly like I’m still 17
Though it’s not what it seems
I envy

And in my 30s
I’ll be afraid of growing old like that
Under pressure from the world
I pity you

No one cares about
What goes on inside of you, you
And the world just wants to see
What comes out of you

When you’ve done everything
What will you do
When you’ve gone everywhere
Where will you go

And in your 40s
You’ll look back and you’ll learn
You had all the right to be a child
And in your 40s
You’ll realize you’ve grown too old too fast
You were pressured by the world
I pity you

No one knows about the child
That cries inside you
And the world just wants to see
The grown-up that’s you

I challenge you
Not to feel guilty
When you face the challenge
Of setting yourself free

And when I’m 50
I’ll find you just to tell you
That I’ve finally
Grown up to be me
And when I’m 50
I’ll prove to you
You didn’t have to be
Under pressure by the world

I promise you
I’d still care about the child that cries inside you
So who cares about what the world says about you

I promise you
I’d still care about you
When I’m 50,
When I’m 50
When I’m 50

ME

2010-04-19T03:13:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009 & TEN 2010)

Here we go again
I’ve taken a break
From being my own bestfriend
I tend to dig my own grave
Every now and then
I thought i could play with fire
Without getting burned

Here we go again
I’m so scared, that this could mean the end
Running out of reasons, and can no longer pretend
But still for you i’ll try not to bend

I was better, when i had you
There’s no reason to - misbehave

I miss you
And i miss the “me” that i am
When i was with you
I miss you
And i miss the “me” that i am
When i’m around you
It’s the “me” that i want to be
And not this me, not this me
I miss you, i miss me

There you go again
You feel like giving up
On your best friend
I’m just so lost but i will find myself again
So for me please try not to bend

I’m always better, when i’m near you
There’s no reason - to misbehave

UP ALL NIGHT

2010-04-19T03:10:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2004)

(Hello hello.. Can I be of service to you?)

Yeah that’s what you said
While you talking in your sleep
In this broad day light
When it’s my turn to be awake
And it’s your turn to slip away
You wake up when I’m just
About to get tired
And you rush to work
You can’t afford to get fired
‘Til your little contract expires

Tell me are you happy
With this kind of life

You’re up all night
While I lay down here
I’m dreaming that
I’m holding you tight
Under a million stars so bright

(hello hello can I help you sir, can I be of service to you…
Can I help you sir?)

I feel as though I’m dead
In this empty bed without your head
Well, all I want is for me to
kiss you goodnight
And everything will be alright

Do you think of me when you converse
With those irate customers
And do they know that it’s their fault
Why your body clock’s been totally reversed

Are you happy how my day is your night
Are you happy with your so-called graveyard life

You’re up all night
While I lay down here
I’m dreaming that
I’m holding you tight
Under a million stars so bright
You’re up all night
While I lay down here
Still waiting for the city lights die out
So I can finally have my time…

I can’t wait 12 hours
To have breakfast with you 2x
But you doze off in our conversations
You dozed off our entire relationship

You’re up all night
While I lay down here
I’m dreaming that
I’m holding you tight
Under a million stars so bright
You’re up all night
While I lay down here
Still waiting for the city lights die out
So I can finally have my time
With you

(hello hello hello
The sun is up
It’s time for me to wake up
It’s time for you to say goodnight

BLUNDER

2010-04-19T03:06:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2004)

You’re the song in my head
I don’t know if I can write
I didn’t know where to start
I felt so damn uptight

You’re the words in my mouth
I can’t quite utter
Though you’re dispensable
You’re still quite like no other

You can go ahead and kiss to confuse me
And act as if you’re the one confused

*Though potentially
You might be
Just another blunder
The ache in my head
I think I will always wonder
You’ll remain to be
This irresistible mystery
But you will never be
My deep down misery

You’re this pool of water
I want to jump right into now
And the under wear
That I put (pooed) on
And hide from you somehow

You’re this hole I dig so deep
That I will leave and come back for
A body to hold
A mind intangible

Yeah I can’t tell you straight
Yeah You’re my sweet mistake
Don’t you know it’s just bed that I’m after
Don’t you know it’s just head that I’m after
Don’t you know it’s not you that I’m after

HERO

2010-04-19T03:01:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2004)

Now I know how your face looks like when you cry
Even that can still be a pretty sight
But in a good way

Now I know
How the world lights up when you smile
It starts with those pretty eyes
When they look my way

And I know that I have a job to do
To mold you to be you
So you can be on your way

And I know that it’s best to just stand still
Not to tell you how I feel
So I won’t be in your way

You should be untouchable, remain so beautiful
You’re my hero, my hero
You will be so capable to break down all the walls
You’re my hero, my hero

Now I know eventually you’ll find
What it takes to make you shine
So you can be on your way

And I know you have questions on your mind
But don’t you waste your time
The answers are on your way

And I know there are things to make you cry
But baby don’t deny
Just mean what you say

And I know one day I’ll let you go
Though I know I love you so
I don’t want to be in your way

You should be unbreakable, remain so beautiful
You’re my hero, my hero
You will be so capable to break down all the walls
You’re my hero, my hero

Don’t you break down
All I ask of you is to grow up
To grow up
Don’t you get scared
All I ask of you is face your fears
And no more tears

You're the star
You're the king
Don't you worry if it's harder than it seems

100

2010-04-19T02:58:00.000-07:00

(from the album SOUND MINDS SPEAK VOLUMES 2009)

There’s a hole in my sky
And I wonder why I feel so high
With this light shining on me
Oh it sets me free
From my misery
And then finally
I will feel forgiven
And finally I will feel deserving
To shine to the world
All the love that is ready to explode

I understand
That its time my self doubt comes to an end
Cause now I know
That without it I’ll increase a hundred-fold
And all I need is this light to show me
Where to begin
Cause I believe that to change myself
Is the start in changing the world

There’s a change in the way
That I see all the things around me
This time I will learn how to leave all the past behind me
And finally I won’t feel forsaken
And finally
I will feel I’m worthy to shine to the world
All the love that is ready to explode

GAP

2010-04-19T02:28:00.000-07:00

(from the albums VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004 & TEN 2010)

I’ve been wanting to tell you about this gap between us
It started when I expressed my sentiments
I just think you deserve better than whoever
I really do look up to you and I want you to be happy

So I guess I’ll say my sorry before I really walk away
But I’ll always remember how this didn’t feel as right
I don’t know what you’re looking for
I just hope that indeed it’s him

And there’s you, little big boy you…
Well you’re the promise we’ve all been waiting for
I can’t believe I’d be missing the day of your first broken heart
And I want to do my part

You know that most of all, I’ll miss you
And if you cry for me, I’ll believe you
But for now I guess you’ll have to let me go

Though, I don’t know what I’m looking for
I just know that it’s not in here
I don’t know that it’s not in here anymore

Make sure you listen to mom and dad
Cause they’ll teach you everything
Like how they taught me everything
And I’ll always be grateful and faithful
But I can’t forever move under their wings

And, well there’s the two of you
Getting old and happy
And I can’t be any happier for you
I’m just your middle child
And I’ve been screaming inside
In asking you to just let me be

So I guess I’ll say my sorry
Before I really walk away
And I’ll carry no burden should you understand me

But I know what I’m looking for
I just know that it’s not in here
I don’t know what I’m looking for
I just know that it’s not in here anymore…

NOT MONEY

2010-04-19T02:25:00.002-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

All my life I tried to run away
From the sound that chase me
From behind my ears
And I’ve had this calling since my early years
And with every note I hit I faced my fears

So I prayed one day I’ll find a way
To deny the thought but it just stayed
So I crossed my fingers
And all I can say is
That every song I sing erased my tears

So how could you go telling me
That I am doing this for cash
When there’s none of that here in fact
That’s why I’m braver than my songs

Love not money
Made me stay
Love not money
Made me feel I’m okay
And I’ll never go away
Cause I got love not money
And that is the only way

Ever since that day they put me down
Well inside this urge to paint the town
With my screams and shouts
These deafening sounds
Cause my heart decided
I should stand my ground

And all the porn stars are to blame
Cause they get bought without a shame
And we all know they’re singing lame
That’s why I’m braver than my songs

Love not money
Made me stay
Love not money
Made me feel I’m okay
And I’ll never go away
Cause I got love not money
And that is the only way

I’m not for sale
I’m not for sale

I don’t want to be misunderstood
Don’t waste my time
I think you should just
Open your minds and read between the lines

And all the porn stars are to blame
Cause they get bought without a shame
And we all know they’re singing lame
That’s why I’m braver than my songs

Love not money
Made me stay
Love not money
Made me feel I’m okay
And I’ll never go away
Cause I got love not money
And that is the only way

You can’t buy me
You can try
But I’m not for sale

You can’t drive me into doing things I don’t want to do
You can’t tell me what to sing and how to sing it
Just so I can have your money
No honey I’m not for sale

PALM OF MY HAND

2010-04-19T02:08:00.000-07:00

(from the albums VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004 & TEN 2010)

I’m dreaming
that my mouth was in
The palm of my hand
And I’m screaming
And no one can hear
the palm of my hand

Which had my mouth
And my tongue
And my voice
Locked in there
No one could care

I’m dreaming
that my mouth was in
The palm of my hand
And I’m screaming
And no one can hear
the palm of my hand

Which had my words
And my tongue
And my mouth
Locked in there
No one could care

If you want to see
What I see
If you want to hear
What I hear
If you want to feel what I feel
If you want to know what I know
Vacuum my inside
You’ll see what’s there…

I’m dreaming
that my mouth was in
The palm of my hand
And I’m screaming
And no one can hear
the palm of my hand

Which had my words
And my voice
And my cries
Locked in there
No one could care

If you want to see
What I see
If you want to hear
What I hear
If you want to feel what I feel
If you want to know what I know
Vacuum my inside

Which had my pains
And my cries
And my voice
Locked in there
No one could care

DOWNFALL

2010-04-19T02:04:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

Doesn’t it scare you
Doesn’t it make you feel alone
You have the power
You have the tendency to control
But that’s for now
While you still haven’t fallen down

You’re making us angry
But we’re not about to lose our faith
For when this is over
We’ll witness the way you’ll pay your debts
It’s worth the wait
To see you when you’ve fallen down

It’s worth the wait
To see you when you’ve fallen

Down….

Haven’t you noticed
You needed to pay off all your friends
And they should be scared now
For where will they go without you there
But that’s okay
They’ll be there when you’ve fallen down

We won’t be exploited
For we’ll never buy your business act
And now you are angry
We don’t have the guts to kiss your ass

Cause it’s worth the wait
To see you when you’ve fallen

Down…

Down, fall down, down..

Fall from your high horse baby
Crawl on the ground
Don’t make a sound

Cause it’s worth the wait
To see you when you’ve fallen

Down…

PAPER TIGER

2010-04-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

Hey
You rub me the wrong way
I say hey
You did me wrong again

Oh I hope it’s not so serious

Hey
You’re so busy with my sins
Always watching when and where it begins

Hey
What makes you so sure
That you carry shiny halo
It’s glimmering bright and yellow

You’re so judgmental
You’re my paper tiger
You absolutely reduce me to nothing

Hey
You got me the wrong way
Hey hey hey
You took the wrong turn again

You’re so judgmental
You’re my paper tiger
You absolutely reduce me to nothing

So I take you off my wall
So I won’t have to be scared anymore
I take you off my wall

You’re so judgmental
You’re my paper tiger
You absolutely absolutely absolutely
Reduce me into nothing

You absolutely turn me into nothing

YOUR GHOST

2010-04-19T01:48:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

Tears has overflowed around me
since you disappeared
And all you left are pictures
in my mind of those years

Dear your laughter lingers
with this silence that i hear
The passion that we share
is burning in me still

You’re in me still

I swear I don’t mind having your ghost here
I swear I don’t mind 2x
so appear

Fear would cross my mind whenever i feel you’re just near
I close my eyes and whisper hoping you can hear

Can you hear me?

Where are you?
I need you now
why don’t you show yourself to me

Where are you?
I feel you now
Your arms are where i’d rather be

I swear I don’t mind having your ghost here
I swear I don’t mind 2x

So appear

WISH

2010-04-19T01:41:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

I wish that I
Can tell you that I
I love you

The harder I try
I ask myself why
I hate you

I’ve tried forgiving you
You tried believing me
What’s not so obvious is true
This smile is not for you

So take my place
Steal my show
It’s not yours, my envious foe
Keep trying your still behind
While I rehearse this precious line

I wish that I
Can tell you that I
I love you

The harder I try
I ask myself why
I hate you

It’s hard for you to know
The rate for you is low
The time is now to believe
There’s no one here you’ll deceive

So take my place
Steal my show
It’s not yours, my envious foe
Keep trying your still behind
While I rehearse this precious line

Do you know it doesn’t matter what you’ve done to me
You put me down the more I rise you see
Who cares what you think and you say?
What can you say?

I hate you
Do you know I do?

BOUND

2010-04-19T01:25:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004 & TEN 2010)

I’m bound to lose you being your first
And I’m bound to need you being the best thing that I ever had
And now the tables have turned
And you’re singing to a different tune
You’re slowly slowly throwing it all away

Now I don’t see why fate brought us together
To only break us apart
And I see why this sudden change of weather
It was good to be true right from the start

When we first got together
Did you know that I’m bound to be
To be alone forever
When we first got together
Did you know you were bound to hurt me
Or did you just discover…

I’m bound to make you a faded picture in my head
And I’m bound to burn all your pictures lying on my lonely bed
Now the clock is ticking
I’m supposed to be healing
But I’m slowly slowly fading away

I’d rather be on my own without you
I would rather be by myself without you
I would rather be on my own without you
So please don’t throw it all away…

LAST BREATH

2010-04-19T01:20:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

Take my hand
I’ll take you to my future grave
And you’ll see that on my tombstone lies your name
But don’t be afraid, it’s just my way of telling you
You’re the thought that goes with my last breath
And the cause to trigger my last breath

I’m counting my days
I’m slowing the pace
I’m wasting my time
Still wishing you were mine
Turning my back against the world
Hoping you would stop me

Take my hand
And come with me on my final days
And then you would know that
My life has been insane without you
You’re just not the same
You won’t take the blame
You’re cause to trigger my last breath
And the thought that goes with my last breath

I’m counting my days
I’m slowing the pace
I’m wasting my time
Still wishing you were mine
Turning my back against the world
Hoping you would stop me

But you’ll never stop me. . .

I will give you my own
I will leave you alone
But if you would come and take my hand

You would surely stop me
You would surely save my life

As I walk into the valley of the shadow
As I cross over into another world
I shall not fear
For thou art be here

I shall not fear
(you can’t save me now)

For thou art be here
(You can’t save me now)

I shall not fear…

BOYS

2010-04-19T01:07:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

Oh Boys…

Why don’t you shave that smile
It’s starting to get irritating
Why don’t you run the mile
And come back a full-grown man

It’s then I realize
You could play the drag queen from Las Vegas
Your biggest fear is that one day
You’ll wake up gay

*Oh men are hard to find the world is full of boys
Yeah men are hard to find they’re playing with their toys

You smile at your ego in the mirror smiling back at you
And it’s so easy for you to equate love with sex
Why don’t you just admit I could be way smarter than you
You’re worse than a girl because you talk bad behind my back

Hanging with the boys
What a shame, I’m in pain
They’re so vain

Come and get me, boys!
I know you’re mad at me, boys!

COMFORT ZONE

2010-04-19T00:57:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004 & TEN 2010)

This house is not some place you can go to
Every time you say you’re feeling down
These arms are not something you can hold on to
Every time you say you’re feeling alone

These words are not your advice
Well I don’t know much about life
To be your therapy

This number’s not something you can call on to
Every time you think you’re going astray
Sometimes it’s not healthy to depend on
All the people who’d rather stay away

This life is not your basis
To get through your major crisis
You see, you need some therapy

I’m not your comfort zone
Well I got pains of my own
I’m not your comfort zone
And I won’t dry your tears for you

This time it’s not funny how you tell me all the details
That I don’t need to know
It’s not enough that you share all your problems
Without trying to let your feelings show

The world is full of negativity
To stay the same is an impossibility
You see you need some therapy

Walk out that door
I can’t see you cry no more
Well, don’t you come knocking back
Cause I, I can’t be the one
To give you, your cure…

When you walk out that door
Turn down the lights on your way out…

FAKE PAINTINGS

2010-04-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

(from the album VACUUM MY INSIDE 2004)

You didn’t hesitate
From trying to escape
With all of these illusions

You’re missing out what’s real
Denying how you feel
Pure imagination

*Erase that lowly make-up
It’s time for you to wake up
And try to wash away fake paintings on your mind

It’s not easy to ignore
You seem to know it all
Still you make the wrong decisions

You just need to clarify
What’s killing you inside
Neglect all your pretensions

Chorus
Fear is the anger that you wear
You take the blame and you don’t care
Don’t let the pain deceive you
Cause the truth will set you free

Release all your pretenses
Believe they’re just defenses
Don’t let yourself forget you
‘Cause love will let you be

The writings on the wall
Says you just might lose it all
Believing misconceptions

You know that you’ll be fine
If you leave it all behind
Make that your conviction

* *
Who will dare to ask you?
What’s wrong?
Who will convince you?
You’re strong!

DRUNK

2010-04-19T00:42:00.000-07:00

(from the album CATTSKI EP 2001)

I hate it when you’re drunk
You only love me when you are
You only want me when you are
I hate it when you’re drunk

I hate it when you’re drunk
You treat me special when you are
You sing me love songs when you are
I hate it when you’re drunk

‘Cause when you’re drunk
You seem to say that you still need me
And that you’d only be completely
Bored and lost without me
But in the morning when you’re sober
Then I know it’s over

I hate it when you’re drunk
You call me baby when you are
You kiss me gently when you are
I hate it when you’re drunk

I hate it when you’re drunk
You treat me special when you are
You sing me love songs when you are
I hate it when you’re drunk

Well now I’m left here staring at your sleep
Thinking deeply of the games you play to tease me
You lead me on to leave me
And though I know this won’t be easy
I don’t want to deal with your hang-over

Stereotype

2010-04-19T00:39:00.000-07:00

(from the album Cattski EP 2001)

Listen to their rumors
Hear them say
Blend into their colors
When they pray
Ask yourself why you strive the same, the same

Comment on their judgments
As they say
Enter into their rituals
As they pray
Hear them say…

This is the way of the world
This voice is my conscience that tells me
There’s no need to follow the way of the world
The way of the world
A challenge to swim an ocean that seems so shallow

Laugh at their lame humor
Let them know
That you’ll adapt to their behavior
Let it show, go with flow
Funny how you help them
Strengthen their vice
Hurt yourself
As you swallow their advice
Pay the price

Am i getting through to you
Show me what is true now
Am i getting through to you
Tell me what to do
Now

The way of the world
is a heavy weight to carry

Tell me what the people say
Tell me how the people pray
Tell me what the people say
Tell me how to stay away

HIGH AND LOW

2010-04-16T05:44:00.000-07:00

(from the albums Cattski EP 2001 & Cattski TEN 2010)

Maybe you don’t know this

Maybe you haven’t noticed

The way you make things complicated

Well I am all alone

Wondering what’s so wrong

And why you always have to change your mind

You tell me you love

You show me you don’t

So how am I supposed to know

You bring me up so high

I think I’m floating, I think I’m flying

You pull me down so low

I think I’m drowning

I feel I’m dying

Lately I’ve been thinking

How you’ve left me hanging here

With the way you’ve been so inconsistent

Well I have heard your stories

All your lame excuses, your promises

They’re making me so confused

So how will I know what goes on deep inside you

I wish I could read your mind…

SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY

2010-04-16T05:34:00.001-07:00

(From the album Cattski EP 2001)

We’ve been through this before

And I don’t want to talk about it

I’ve heard it all before

This story’s been told and everybody knows

He’s not doing good to you

And it’s all your fault

The way he treats you now

Is the way you should treat him back somehow

And it’s all your fault

Who said love is like a fairy tale

And you’re the princess

While your prince turns into a villain

Your tears are drying out

But deep inside you can’t stop crying

Well, you’re not even trying

The magic has died but why are you still

Sleeping with the enemy

You say you don’t want to be told of what to do

I know that pride is a bitter pill for you to swallow

Remember this, you will regret what you’ve become

You’ve nowhere to go, you’re just going down

No!

Don’t you go down to that level

Your tears are drying out

But deep inside you can’t stop crying

I’ve heard it all before

This story’s been told and everybody knows

He’s not doing good to you

SECRETS

2010-04-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

(From the album Cattski EP 2001)

I am here to dig up the secrets

That you’ve been hiding in the dark

I will see and know why there’s

So much mystery in here

I hear strange voices in my sleep

I hear you talking

I can feel you creep inside my sheets

You’re tired of hiding

So now that I’m here

You can share your secrets

You can tell me what you want to say

It won’t be long til you can share your secrets

And it won’t feel you’re all alone anymore

I see it clear that you have many secrets

That you’ve been hiding for so long

I know it drives you crazy

Pretending it’s okay

I hear strange voices in my sleep

I hear you talking

I can feel you creep into my dreams

You’re tired of hiding

QUESTIONS

2010-04-16T04:53:00.000-07:00

(from the albums Cattski EP 2001 & Cattski TEN 2010)

So many questions

The answers are lies

So many things to keep inside

These are my thoughts that need real meaning

Though I’ve been so blind in time I will find

But what are my chances with you

Will I ever be able to

Answer your questions

The very same questions I ask of myself

So many questions that turn to conclusions

So many things to figure out

These are my fears, the effects of your inquiries

These are the things you do to me

But is this me? Why am I here?

What am I doing?

Where am I going?

What do you want from me?

What do I have to do?

What am I to you?

Why do I complain?

Why do I seem to lose control over these questions?

These un-ending questions that you never cease to ask of me…

You can never change me.

But this is me.

Why am I here?

What am I doing?

Where am I going?

What do you want from me?

What do I have to do?

What am I to you?